I went out tonight with the girls that I used to work with. It was sooooo good to see them. Those girls are what I miss like crazy about my old job and I'm certain that I will never find a group with that dynamic anytime soon, if ever.
Anyways.....I went out with the girls. Wore cute shoes, some makeup and half way did my hair. Well, everytime someone said how pretty I was or how good I looked, in my head, I immediately dismissed the comment. I'm such a girl in the sense that I don't give myself any credit at all when it comes to my looks. I don't think I'm pretty. I definitely don't think I'm beautiful. My friends are gorgeous girls. Gorg! They're all skinny, pretty and have amazing boyfriends....in my head, I'm chubby, not pretty, and doomed to be single forever. Gahhhhh! I am FULLY aware that these thoughts are crazy, that they're not rational, but they will not leave my head. They're stuck. They aren't going anywhere anytime soon. Such.A.Girl.
Ok....I think I'm done now. Sorry for the sad girl blogger tonight.....
like i said, you're gorgeous. don't you forget it!
ReplyDeleteA tip I got from a confidence course - if someone compliments you, just say thank you, even if you're thinking it is undeserved. It forces you to pay attention to the positive thing the other person is saying, and not to change it to a negative. Sooner or later (maybe even quite a bit later unfortunately) it does change how you perceive yourself a bit. I still have to resist denying the compliment, but I've definitely seen a difference in my own opinion of myself.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes, you are gorgeous :)