(fair warning. I over-think things. A lot. Please ignore this silly girl thing that I do. Please. )
So. This guy. We met in a very 2013 way....online. I have had a profile off and on with this website that my sister used, my friends have used. I know of two marriages, and a handful of long-term relationships that have stemmed from this website. When I decided that I am over J, and need to move on, I reset my profile, updated my info, and added some new pictures. Well, the next day I stumbled upon....um....he needs a blog name still, for now we'll call him The Lumberjack since that is what two of my friends said he looked like when I shared one of his pictures with them. (side note, he is not actually a lumberjack) I sent him an email. He replied. We emailed back and forth for a day, then I got bold and sent him my cell phone number that night. Something felt right, like that is what needed to be done, so I did it. This is very out of character for me. I *NEVER* make the "first move" first. I'm a very traditional gal that thinks the guy should make the first move always. Anywhoooooo. He texted me the next day. And we kinda haven't really stopped since then. The email day was January 6th, he texted me on January 7th.
However.....We haven't met yet. We had planned to meet last Sunday, the 20th but I was exhausted and accidentally fell asleep right after work so those plans kinda fell through.
To be honest, it makes me insanely nervous to think about meeting him! I mean, what if I'm not pretty enough for him? What if he thinks I'm fat? What if he hates me? What if his voice sounds like Clint Eastwood on helium (sorry, inside joke)? I just have built this perfect little bubble in my mind of what will happen, what great things we've talked about, us in general...and I don't want to burst that bubble. Tell me I'm not crazy. Tell me that it will work out if it is meant to be. Tell me that I shouldn't be nervous. Tell me it will be ok. I need loads of reassurance on this.