2013. I got this.

I took some time to review my goals (both personal and professional) that I made for 2012, and I have to say, I'm rather pleased as pie with myself on where I am at right now.  Let's review....Starting with my personal goals: 

 

1 – Find peace within myself and love myself more. I am a big believer that you can't be at peace or love someone else until you do those things for yourself. I think that my outside world feels tumultuous because my mind and soul feel like a choppy ocean. This will probably be one of the harder goals to reach but I am determined to reach it. And hold on to it with both hands. - I'm working on this, but I'm so much better than I was at this point last year!  Finding peace within myself will always be a goal that I strive to achieve, but I will absolutely never, ever, stop trying. 

2 – Find a job I love. This will happen. I know it will. And I won't stop looking. And the job that I'm meant to have will come just when it is supposed to. - Well, I started at the store on April 2nd (I think...it might have been the first...), while it is definitely NOT the place I will spend the rest of my working years, it has been just what I needed after the CU and a tumultuous year of unemployment. 

3 – Get Scarlett Key and Little Life of Mine to a place that I'm proud of and to a place that I want to sponsor and do giveaways on other blogs that I love. This sounds like a professional goal, but these things are so very much a part of me that they needed a goal here too. - I DID THIS!  haha, I sponsored Susannah's blog for a few months; I even did her large ad with a giveaway!  Scarlett Key is there again for January and I couldn't be more pleased!  I also was a part of Kaelah's handmade giveaway in December.  

4 – Spend more time with my friends. I am extremely susceptible to feeling lonely, this could be stopped by actually making more of an effort to see my friends. I'm also very unsure if I will continue living in Dayton – and if I move over an hour away it will only get harder to see the people that I miss now when they only live minutes away. - Well, I did move back to the farm.  I get back to Dayton as often as I can, which is translating to about once a month or so.  I've made some very dear friends at the store that I do spend some time with as well. 

5 – Spend more time walking. I don't want to set a goal to lose weight – a girl with a history of an eating disorder shouldn't place too much emphasis on this – I merely want to be more active. I have a treadmill for a reason. - I did this too!  :)  I got up to over five miles on the trails around Chilli, but then after I started at the store, this decreased dramatically!  I have a few helpful plans/hints pinned to one of my Pinterest boards so I'm looking forward to continuing this again in 2013!  I will say that I have lost roughly 30 pounds this year even without keeping up with the walking stuff! 

6 – Actually get some face time with my dear bloggy friends. Camille & Haley, I'm looking at you! - I went to Jersey and spent a whole weekend running around with Camille!  I honestly can't wait to visit more, and I really can't wait for her wedding to Shane that I better be invited to ;)  I'm pretty sure I threaten to move there every few weeks haha

7 – Make peace with my sister. This is by far going to be the HARDEST thing to do. Just the idea scares me. - This I failed miserably at.  I actually told my sister that I never wanted to speak to her ever again back in November...or was it October?  I don't remember.  While I am saddened that I will never know my niece, I know this is the way it should be.  She and I are just not ever going to see eye to eye enough to warrant having such a negative relationship in our lives.  I guess I have made peace with her, just not with her in my life, it is with her out of it. 

8 – Stay up-to-date with my 12 in 12! I'm really looking forwards to this!!! - Another horrible failure!  haha, I did only halfway good in January and then it all just went away when I started the process to move back to the farm in February/March.  

 

 And now, my professional goals:

 

1 – Add new products.  - I did this!  I have added daddy's pens/pencils, bookmarks, fabric headbands, etc.  I also have a few things up my sleeve as well!  

2 – Do something good with my store. - This I didn't do as good on.  I didn't do a "percentage of proceeds" kind of thing, but I did start doing shows at events that support my local communities.  More than one of the shows I did this year had the booth fees go to things I'm passionate about in my communities.  That makes me a happy shop owner. 

3 -- Get my blog and Scarlett Key to a point where I can confidently sponsor blogs like Camille's or Susannah's or Kaelah's.   - As stated above, I did this!  Go me!   

 

As for 2013?  All I'm going to say is: MORE OF THE SAME.  More confidence building, more exercising, more friend time, just more good stuff.  I got this.  We all do. 

More Scarlett Key Updates.....

Hey, guys, I've been working my behind off (well, not literally, wouldn't it be awesome if your butt disappeared based on how hard you work?!?!) on getting Scarlett Key up to par for the winter months since I don't have any shows lined up at this time.  I've gotten a lot listed between yesterday, today, and the renewals I just did.  I will have some head bands, ear warmers, and bookmarks to list but those will be up within 24-ish hours.  Right now, though?  Right now I need to attempt to sleep a bit.... 

Scarlett Key!!

Well, I kinda got my crap together and have the shop opened back up.  Kinda.  I have the previously listed items updated with what I've sold and what I still have.....the next step is taking photos and listing the items I've made since the last time I had the shop open.  (can you believe that it has been like three months since then?!?!) 

Let me know what you think, the good & the bad!! 

I'm also so incredibly open to custom orders if you want something that you don't see!  Just email the store email at: scarlettkeysales (at) gmail (dot) com

Dear You....

I have a confession. You cross my mind more than I care to admit. 
I wonder what you're up to. 
I wonder if you like your new job. 
I wonder what you would say if I texted and said, hey, I'm gonna throw on my jean skirt, wanna meet up for a bit. 
I wonder what you would say if I asked if you can believe that next week, November 14th, is our "anniversary" of sorts. 
I wonder if you've studied for your GED. 
I wonder if you need help studying for your GED. 
I wonder if you want to come over and just watch movies with me because I hate watching movies alone. 
I wonder what would happen if I said we should have a proper date.  Candlelight, flowers, picking me up from the farm kind of date. 
I wonder if there is some way I can help you figure things out.
I wonder if you realize that I'm way super stressed and the way you make me laugh is something that I need because of that stress. 
I wonder if you think about me when you're bored because that's when you cross my mind a lot. 
I wonder if you have to stop for a second in the middle of the day because the thought of jean skirts, meeting in random parking lots in Greenfield, rain on a trailer roof, cleaning semi truck tires, and all the things that happened and were said catch you off guard.
I wonder what you would say when I remind you that we're friends first.  That friends are there for each other.  That even without being in a relationship that I know you don't want right now, friends help each other out, that friends talk, that friends see each other and hang out.  That I miss my friend.  

Dear You.... (in pictures...)

Thank you, Pinterest, as always you said it better than I could have. 

I've been a little busy....

Three custom orders done plus these guys will be in the shop if I don't sell them at my bazaar on the 27th.

Ex-Boyfriends and babies.

So, I went to lunch with one of my friends the other day and was chatting away about my past relationships and how long it has been since I was technically in a relationship.  And?  Why it didn't work out/what the guy went on to do. 

Now, I'm still friends with lots of my exs, most of them actually, so I do know what they went on to do.  I know that, well, all of them went on to get married and have baby(ies).  All that conversation did was remind me that for some reason I wasn't good enough to have babies with.  Literally.  I have thought about this for days now.  DAYS.  Have you ever felt this way?  Like you couldn't figure out why you weren't good enough to have babies with someone?  Like what did you do to make that person/people not want to spend the rest of their lives with you?  Did they not realize that more than wanting kids, you're terrified that you can't have babies?  Just a lot to ponder & think about.